Hii, Iβm Maryama ππΌ
I grew up in an environment where reading the room wasnβt optional β it was survival.
But more than thatβ¦
I became the one who managed the room.
If youβve ever felt like youβre the one who keeps everything togetherβ¦
β¨ The one who notices when somethingβs off
β¨ The one who smooths things over
β¨ The one who makes sure everyone else is okay
Youβre not alone darling π©΅
I could feel a shift in my mumβs mood before she said a word
A different tone
A heavier step on the stairs
A slight change in energy
And instantly, my body reacted like something needed fixing.
Not because anyone told me to
But because my system learnedβ¦
π βkeeping the peace = staying safeβ
And for the longest time, I thought that was just who I was
But as I got olderβ¦ It didnβt switch off sadly
I was still doing it
In conversations, in relationships and in every interaction
Constantly scanning, constantly adjusting, constantly carrying things that werenβt mine
And the hardest part?
I didnβt have access to therapy. I didnβt have $300 sessions to unpack any of this.
So I did what Iβve always doneβ¦
I studied, i researched, i went deep into emotional patterns, nervous system responses, and something I later understood as:
π the Phantom Parent role
Because this isnβt about βsetting better boundariesβ
Itβs about understanding the role your system learnedβ¦
So you can finally stop being the one who holds everything together
and start existing in your own space again π